Wednesday, April 1, 2009

In my weakness...

I want to reassure those of you, who don't believe that you can be a Christian and watch the Simpson's... you can.  :) We chose not to watch the Halloween specials, and we closed our eyes during the "Itchy and Scratchy" segments... but we still laughed more at that silly show than almost anything we ever did together... sounds a little pathetic when I say it out loud, but there it is.

We always joked that child #2 was like Bart and that my husband Paul, was like Homer. My husband's a gentle giant. Unlike Homer, he's never harmed a child in his life, but he does have the capacity to let others wait on him. It's my fault. I wanted to be a Proverbs 31 wife... I wanted to be like my Granny... turns out... now I only want a new husband. Hahahahaha... sorry. Just kidding. There was an episode where Homer is finally kicked out of the house by his long suffering wife Marge. She says he can't come back till he can come up with a valid answer to her question: "What do you have to offer this marriage?" 

He has to live somewhere so he chooses the tree house in the back yard (as my husband would.) Within a few hours, his clothes are tattered as if he's been ship wrecked, and he has a full beard and a wild look in his eyes. Oh my! I am laughing now. By the end (spoiler alert) he runs into the house, falls to his knees and says to the love of his life, "Marge! I finally figured out what I have to offer you! Total and utter dependency!" Paul and I looked at each other and burst out laughing. That is us. He is a go getter in life, but in this home... it all falls apart if I'm not in the picture. 

I didn't think I could blog today... my heart and mind are on other things... people. Christians. We can get so far off track when we turn even slightly to the left or the right... such a slippery slope. I speak from experience. When we get away from Christ, we actually convince ourselves that things are still on track... it's just a different track. I remember asking a dear friend once, who had walked away from Christ, "How do you do it? How do you turn your back, knowing what you know?" He said something so obvious and simple. He answered, "You just keep shoving God to the back of your mind till you don't think about Him anymore." Wow! Deep... and shallow all at the same time.

I can tell you that the trials I face, I would face whether saved or unsaved. The Bible says that the rain falls on the just and the unjust. All I know is that the things I've faced, I've needed Someone bigger than my trials. I needed Someone Who knew the outcome and Who could comfort me and strengthen me when my legs were too weak to stand. I needed a Rescuer who didn't just pick me up and pull me out, but Who taught me how to trust, obey and follow so that when the next trial came, I was stronger. In return, I have but one thing to offer that Hero... that Saviour... total and utter dependency


  1. Wow!!
    You almost lost me with the Simpsons...I've never watched them. But I stuck it out and you brought it around. Boy, did you bring it around. You know we have our kids who we love more than anything else we can imagine. We begin grooming them to go out into the world...holding and carrying them those first years after they come into the world and then we begin starting them on those first baby steps as they hold our hands. They progress from our hands to that one finger shuffle. Finally releasing them...then they want that total independence and will toddle along holding a table (anything but our hand) until they are off and on their own. As they grow then continue "walking" farther from us 'til they are independent and striding along without much assistance from us at all. BUT YET, with God as I grow older, I'm finding it's the total REVERSE. I've walked independently for so long...more and more I see that I can't. Life would try to pull the rug out from under me and occasionally I would cry out to Him ("God, can I just have you help me in this moment, for this thing?" --Like I just need His finger for balance and then I'll be fine). But more & more, I'm finding that I am clinging to His hand. Now, I'm at the point where I am asking Him to pick me up & carry me...every day and every way. I'm a slow-learner, but He's patient. Thanks for reminding me today of my dependency on Him...I'd be utterly lost without Him. You are a blessing, Xena!

  2. Hey! Who's blog is this?! Hahahaha... sorry, made myself laugh. First House... next the Simpson's... baby steps indeed.

  3. Who's got time for the Simpson's? I've got, what, 10 more seasons of House (not counting the new ones)? I don't normally do "cartoons"...unless it's Spongebob or King of The Hill.

  4. I saw that Simpson's episode! Loved it! :)

    I got chills with that last line in your post... how you brought it all back to frankly how we are, and should be, with our precious Jesus--totally and utterly dependent.